Thursday, November 4, 2010
Things are a changing
Hi sorry its been a while time gets away on me .Lots of changes about to happen I don't know whether I have talked about my gorgeous wee mum. She has Alzheimer's at 86 she is strong physically but her world mentally is getting smaller and smaller it breaks your heart.Its got to the stage where its become increasingly difficult for Dad to manage and Mum has been assessed as needing a secure Dementia unit as she likes to wander.
We have Mums name down at a local Retirement home its pleasant has a lovely garden the staff are friendly and Pauline who runs it is a kind and compassionate person.I know Mum will be well cared for we can visit whenever we like BUT I cant help feeling guilty,sad and have a great sense of loss grieving for the person Mum used to be.The one conciliation is that to a certain extent she has no idea of how much has changed for her I am a great friend someone she can rely on I am no longer her Daughter in her mind.
Next week my younger Brother is visiting for a couple of weeks he hasn't been to NZ in ten years.I am so looking forward to seeing him and having some family time.It will be interesting to see if she remembers Rob I hope she does.
Change is a perculiar thing something I'm not great with one thing we do have is fantastic memories and pictorial evidensce of what a wonderful loving mum and grandma she is.